inner voice.

I realized lately that Im addicted to self torture. Mentally, definitely physically, undeniably emotionally. I am meaner to myself than anyone I've ever met. We all have an inner voice that is on repeat and tells us subconsciously the same thing...except my inner voice is a straight up bitch. She's heartless, unforgiving, judgmental, and rude...all the time. She hardly ever gives me credit for anything. Voice has told me my whole life that I am unworthy, undeserving, not pretty enough to stand next to my friends, not as smart as my class mates, not as athletically gifted as my counterparts. At best, I've considered myself average. Yea, really inspiring...get a grip, Linds. Wonder woman doesn't look in the mirror and wish her uniform weren't as snug. Fuck. I've got some work to do...